207 Comments
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I got your book, Letters of Note for my 98 yr old father to read to my 95 yr old mother. They have been voracious readers of good literature their entire lives so her going blind was a huge loss. Plus she's sliding into dementia. But let me tell you they loved that book. The length of the letters was perfect. They sometimes roared with laughter, my mom sometimes cried. Some made them very quiet and thoughtful. Sometimes my dad would say something like, "Well what do ya know about that?" I just know those letters percolated in their minds for quite some time. It was wonderful. I wanted to read it to but one of my siblings swiped it and so now I have to get my own copy. Oh well. Money well spent.

Expand full comment
author

This really moved me. Thank you. Drop me an email at shaun@lettersofnote.com and I’ll gladly send you another copy.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Oh how kind of you. If it was anything but a book, like a frying pan or something, I'd take you up on your offer. But I will very happily buy it. Thank you so much.

Expand full comment

Fine writer and reader of Substack—we are starting a movement to get a poetry section added to the platform. Can I ask, are you with us?

https://substack.com/profile/10309929-david/note/c-15579327

If so, please consider clicking the above link and liking the Notes post—leave a comment or even share within your own community. Poetry lives on in the minds of hearts of writers, it breathes on the page.

Your voice can be heard among the starry illuminations, howling at the moon.

Thank you for your time and support.

Love and appreciation,

David

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Just thank you for everything you do, it is genuinely life affirming.

Expand full comment
author

It’s a genuine pleasure. Thanks for following.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Thank you! And my favourite is Virginia Wool’s final letter to Leonard, so dignified and heartbreaking.

Expand full comment
author

Isn’t it just.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Firm fave with me to, so sad but so Virginia!!!

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

A letter from Zelda Fitzgerald to F. Scott Fitzgerald. This letter is on page 178 of Zelda by Nancy Milford and is to date my favorite love letter. I think its the line about the telephone that just feels so modern and relatable today even though she wrote this letter many years ago. Anyway here it is:

Goofy, my darling, hasn't it been a lovely day? I woke up this morning and the sun was lying like a birthday parcel on my table so I opened it up and so many happy things went fluttering up into the air: love to Doo-do and the remembered feel of our skins cool against each other in other mornings like a school-mistress. And you 'phoned and said I had written something that pleased you and so I don't believe I've ever been so heavy with happiness ... Darling— I love those velvet nights. I've never been able to decide whether the night was a bitter enemie or a grand patron—or whether I love you most in the eternal classic half-lights where it blends with day or in the full religious fan-fare of midnight or perhaps in the lux of noon— Anyway I love you most and you 'phoned me just because you 'phoned me tonight— I walked on those telephone wires for two hours after holding your love like a parasol to balance me. My dear—

I'm so glad you finished your story— Please let me read it Friday. And I will be very sad if we have to have two rooms. Please.

Dear. Are you sort of feeling aimless, surprised, and looking rather reproachful that no melo-drama comes to pass when your work is over—as if you [had] ridden very hard with a message to save your army and found the enemy had decided not to attack—the way you sometimes feel—or are you just a darling little boy with a holiday on his hands in the middle of the week—the way you sometimes are—or are you organizing and dynamic and mending things—the way you sometimes are—

I love you—the way you always are.

Dear—

Good-night—

Dear— dear dear dear dear dear dear

Dear dear dear dear dear dear

Dear dear dear dear dear dear

Dear dear dear dear dear dear.

Expand full comment
author

I don’t remember this one. Thank you!

Expand full comment

I love this one as well!

Expand full comment

I’m looking through a box of letters written by my (late) mother (known as Mort) to my father, Pvt. J.D. Doran, Squadon A MAAF Merced, California. The one I grabbed begins as follows,

“Tuesday (Feb. 8, 1945)

Hello I love you •

Just a line because I have to get up early tomorrow morning to go to the clinic...

Finished the embroidery on both the pink & blue squares (both floss not flannel) They both look cute as can be.

I’ll be on hand tomorrow night waiting for that call from you. It seems to make the week go faster knowing I’m going to hear your voice.

No more news -- but the surprising statement “I love you.” Bet you didn’t know that! (Excuse me -m- I forgot to include you. Stop kicking about it. I’ll correct that too)

We love you,

M & m “

This letter was sent from San Rafael a couple of weeks before my big sister Micki (m) was born. My dad was stationed at Merced Army Airfield, a training base.

It’s not a letter that’s of any great importance, just a love note from a young wife. It comes from a box labeled “precious letters” that may be precious to no one but M, who is gone now. Only memories remain...

Expand full comment
author

Well, it seems important to me. Thank you Bob.

Expand full comment

It seems to make the week go faster knowing I’m going to hear your voice’ - so lovely, so precious ❤️

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I love Kurt Vonnegut's response to his book being burned (and pretty much every letter he ever wrote). Your site brings me immense joy and comfort and I have never reached out to thank you for your work. It has absolutely enriched my life.

https://fs.blog/kurt-vonneguts-letter-book-burning/

Expand full comment
author

That’s one of the first letters I shared, years ago, and it remains a favourite. In fact, many of Vonnegut’s letters are magnificent.

Expand full comment

My favourite letter is one of only seventeen syllables. A haiku. (The ultra-compact form of poetic expression that predates the tweet by hundreds of years.)

I received this haiku in reply to one that I sent in a birthday card to an old friend.

My birthday message was:

This, a small bundle

Of gift wrapped words left for

one who finds it so.

The reply:

So, is this your way

Of saying that you forgot

To buy me something?

Expand full comment

Fine writer and reader of Substack—we are starting a movement to get a poetry section added to the platform. Can I ask, are you with us?

https://substack.com/profile/10309929-david/note/c-15579327

If so, please consider clicking the above link and liking the Notes post—leave a comment or even share within your own community. Poetry lives on in the minds of hearts of writers, it breathes on the page.

Your voice can be heard among the starry illuminations, howling at the moon.

Thank you for your time and support.

Love and appreciation,

David

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023·edited Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

At the age of 9, I watched the film A League of Their Own and was furious to find out that the high school I would eventually attend did not have a women's baseball team I could join. I wrote my first letter ever, to the Dean of the high school, to ask him the reason for this egregious error. He wrote me a letter back in which he spoke to me like an adult, respectfully and logically informing me that they couldn't have a women's baseball team because if they did, there wouldn't be any other teams to play against since no other schools nearby had women's baseball teams either. His letter changed my life as it showed me that I could DO something with letters - get information, solve problems, find answers, and maybe even change things. From that moment on, I was a letter enthusiast. I'm now 40 and still have the letter I received from him.

Expand full comment
author

That's great! Did you ever join a team?

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

In his letter, he encouraged me to join other sports. And eventually I joined and enjoyed Cross Country (long distance) running. I did join a co-ed softball league in adulthood for a bit and I do remember thinking back on his letter at that time.

Expand full comment

Beautiful story!

Expand full comment

UPDATE: After some searching, i found out the Dean was still living in my hometown. I recently wrote him a letter including with it a copy of the one he wrote back to me when I was a kid. A week later, I received a long and detailed letter from him in response in which he was very moved & touched by my letter. He also said that he was proud of me for the sports and activities I did end up participating in in school and thar he was so glad he instilled a love of letters in me. A great conclusion to our echange.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

The letter from Vilma Grunwald, awaiting death in the concentration camp, imploring her husband to "take care of the golden boy". I cry every time I read it.

Expand full comment
author

Same here. It’s almost impossible to read. Unimaginable.

Expand full comment

I saw that letter (or maybe a reproduction) in a holocaust museum and out of all the horribly unbearable things in that museum that’s what pierced me the most

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Yes tears just flow reading that one and I find it lingers in my thoughts for hours/days afterwards, so very sad, unimaginable!!!

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I like the letter "O". It's so all encompassing.

Expand full comment
author

I'll let this one slide.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Henry James, "Sorrow passes and we remain."

Expand full comment
author

That’s in my top 10. Perfection.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

From James Joyce to Nora Barnacle. I enjoy uncommon love, as my own love and I are quite unconventional. While Joyce had his choice ways of expressing himself, his love letters to Nora always make me swoon.

“I love you deeply and truly, Nora. I feel worthy of you now. There is not a particle of my love that is not yours. In spite of these things which blacken my mind against you I think of you always at your best… Nora, I love you. I cannot live without you. I would like to give you everything that is mine, any knowledge I have (little as it is), any emotions I myself feel or have felt, any likes or dislikes I have, any hopes I have or remorse. I would like to go through life side by side with you, telling you more and more until we grew to be one being together until the hour should come for us to die. Even now the tears rush to my eyes and sobs choke my throat as I write this. Nora, we have only one short life in which to love. O my darling be only a little kinder to me, bear with me a little even if I am inconsiderate and unmanageable and believe me we will be happy together. Let me love you in my own way. Let me have your heart always close to mine to hear every throb of my life, every sorrow, every joy.“

Expand full comment
author

I love this. Thank you.

Expand full comment

Fine writer and reader of Substack—we are starting a movement to get a poetry section added to the platform. Can I ask, are you with us?

https://substack.com/profile/10309929-david/note/c-15579327

If so, please consider clicking the above link and liking the Notes post—leave a comment or even share within your own community. Poetry lives on in the minds of hearts of writers, it breathes on the page.

Your voice can be heard among the starry illuminations, howling at the moon.

Thank you for your time and support.

Love and appreciation,

David

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

When I was a child, I wrote to television personality Fred Rogers in braille. It is a reading/writing system created for blind persons. Mister Rogers very kindly wrote back to me using the same method of communication. I still treasure the two letters which he sent to me. After he passed away early in the 21st century, I typed his letters to me into a Word document for preservation purposes. I copy a brief excerpt from one of his letters to me below. Shaun: Can I email to you as an attachment the electronic version of Fred Rogers's letters? They are too lengthy to share here in full.

"Blake, even though you cannot see, there are many things you can do. Communicating about your thoughts and feelings is one thing you can do. And, it gives me a good feeling to know that enjoying our program is another thing you can do!"

Expand full comment
author

Blake, this is brilliant. Please feel free to send them over: shaun@lettersofnote.com

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Oh Shaun, Let me tell you this, you are my favourite. So glad I found you. With a song in my heart, Perpetua

Expand full comment

The Kurt Vonnegut letter to the school kids. Perhaps not as deep as others, but significant in that it frees us from self-doubt and permits creativity which in turn puts us on a path to break boundaries (in a positive sense!).

Expand full comment
author
Apr 27, 2023·edited Apr 27, 2023Author

I agree. It's inspiring, touching, generous. And I think it is deep in its own way. https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/make-your-soul-grow

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

My favorite remains “To My Old Master.” Some make me laugh and others make me cry, but that one is simply brilliant.

Expand full comment
author

Few letters leave me wanting to punch the air, but that one does. Every single time. https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/to-my-old-master

Expand full comment

The day after Reagan was shot, an 8 year old boy wrote him a letter to warn him:

Dear Mr. President, I hope you get well quick -- or you might have to make a speech in your pajamas.

P.S. If you have to make a speech in your pajamas, I warned you!

Reagan read it to Congress before giving a speech. Story from UPI is here:

https://www.upi.com/Archives/1981/04/29/Eight-year-old-Peter-Sweeney-slept-as-his-get-well-letter/7198357364800/

Expand full comment
author

I hadn't seen this! Thank you. I've always fancied compiling a "Letters of Note: Children" or something similar. This would fit perfectly.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023·edited Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Oh Shaun, I have many favourites. As much as I don't want to reduce them to that box, I just love revisiting some on the days I need a little pick me up.

First and foremost has to be Helen Keller's letter to Nazi students burning her books. The loved bit has to be where she quotes: "History has taught you nothing if you think you can kill ideas. Tyrants have tried to do that often before, and the ideas have risen up in their might and destroyed them."

or Douglas Adam's feedback to not Americanise the world he weaved into the Galaxy or V.S. Naipaul echoing each writer has their own voice.

or your attempt to get our AI overlords suggest ways to end a letter. surprisingly they had roughly 500 ways to say it - some hilarious and some adorably sweet.

or the cry of a lone American in space in the aftermath of 9/11. or the letter from Vilma Grunwald. or Bill Baxley's letter to Dr. Fields. or Rilke. This is where I stop writing and recollecting 100s I have read because of you.

This curation of yours have led me to venture into the collection of letters of Van Gogh. Truth be told, its beautiful to read such letters with renewed intimacies, trust and beyond. Thank you, Shaun!

Expand full comment
author

All good choices! Thanks Sweeha.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

This one ! Not a week goes by that I don’t think of Stephen's reply …

I had no idea who to turn to. But I really needed someone to turn to and to ease the pain. So I wrote to Stephen Fry because he is my hero, and he has been through this himself. And lo and behold, he replied to my letter, and I will love him eternally for this.

Stephen’s perfect reply—written on this day in 2006

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Ken kesey after his son was buried, so heartbreaking yet wonderful.

E B White winding the clock, printed and pinned to my locker door. Perfection.

Expand full comment
author

100%. Both superb. Kesey’s still knocks the wind out of me.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

In some version of Ken's letter at the end he talks about reaping what another man sows, yet I don't see it anymore. Did I dream that part?

Expand full comment
author

Doesn’t ring a bell. As far as I’m aware, this is the full letter: https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/what-a-world

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Ok. Thank you.

And as others have said, thank you for your efforts over the years. The letters have brought me immense joy.

Expand full comment
author

Thanks Paul.

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

That was the most moving letter. I’d not seen it before. Thanks for sharing - you have given us all something so special. So sad for the Kelsey family, but they took the good with the bad and you’ve got to love that.

Expand full comment

I use this nice piece for Holiday cards….

Expand full comment

I use it if a friend is feeling glum, but as long as the beautiful words are shared, I guess it doesn't matter either way.

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Leigh Hunt (1784 - 1859) was a friend and mentor to the poet John Keats. He wrote a letter to Keats's carer Joseph Severn on 8th March, 1821, unaware that Keats had already died some two weeks previously. The theme of the letter was also echoed in Leonard Cohen's last letter to his friend and muse Marianne (written 200 years later).

‘…tell that great poet and noble-hearted man that we shall all bear his memory in the most precious parts of our hearts, and that the world shall bow their heads to it as our loves do. Or if this…will trouble his spirit, tell him we shall never cease to remember and love him, and that Christian or Infidel, the most skeptical of us has faith enough in the high things that nature puts into our heads, to think that all who are of one accord in mind or heart are journeying to one and the same place and shall meet somehow or other again, face to face, mutually conscious, mutually delighted. Tell him he is only before us on the road, as he was in everything else; or whether you tell him the latter, or no, tell him the former, and add, that we shall never forget that he was so, and that we are coming after him.’

Expand full comment
author

That's wonderful, and a new one for me. Thanks Ian. This is exactly why I started the thread.

Expand full comment

Thanks it is one of my favourites. I've written about this and other friends of Keats in my @keatscircle Instagram account or at Wordsworth Grasmere blog 'Keats Who Was Who' (Google 'Ian Reynolds John Keats' and you should find it).

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

E.B White's letters of note were so humorous and self-effacing that I bought the book and have enjoyed all 685 pages. Stephen Fry's "It will be sunny one day" is in my wallet. Indeed there are many. I have bought 4 of your books. Many thanks, Shaun.

Expand full comment
author

It's an absolute pleasure, Rosey. Thanks for getting involved, and for buying those books.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Sorry can't remember the great ones. But when a letter hits it out of the park, I send it to my closest friends and say, "You must sign up for these letters, see how great they are!"

Expand full comment
author

Thank you!

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Shaun, the point of this delightful addition to my inbox is that there is no algorithm attached to it, steering the subjects matter and narrowing the view. I like them all, some more than others of course, but I keep reading. I often don't have time to read long letters, but the brief and poignant, or funny, or angry, or historic etc.... are all fascinating. So happy I found you. or you me.

Expand full comment
author

Thanks James. I'm glad too.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

This one! It always makes me laugh. https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/i-am-unable-to-accept-your-rejection

Expand full comment

E.B. White’s secret reasons letter.

Expand full comment
author

Unimprovable. For those who haven’t read it:

“Thanks for your letter inviting me to join the committee of the Arts and Sciences for Eisenhower.

I must decline, for secret reasons.”

—E. B. White to J. Donald Adams, 1956

Expand full comment

I use "for secret reasons," as an excuse fairly regularly, both for its brilliance and the way it functions as a shibboleth. The way my heart leaps when someone knows the source!

Expand full comment

This is My Favorite

Súper Níce

·

Expand full comment

I re-typed this letter and made a little collage with it to stick in the front of one of my notebooks during a season in which I was trying to say no more often. One of my favorites!

Expand full comment

First one I thought of as well!

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Nixon's resignation letter. Not just because it reminds me of the time when a crook could be shamed into doing the right thing, but because I've recommended it several times as a template for resignation letters and the like.

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Virginia's letters are among my favourites. But the absolute best ones are: the one Vita writes to Virginia ("I am reduced to a thing that wants Virginia"), and another from a very very angry some Medici's wife ("You are driving me into such a state of despair that no hour of the day passes when I do not desire your death and wish that you were hanged. What aggravates me most of all is that we shall both go to the devil and then I shall have the torment of seeing you even there. I swear by what I loathe above all else—that is yourself—that I shall make a pact with the devil to enrage you and to escape your madness.") it always makes me laugh, it's so cathartic!!

Thank you Shaun for always being there, with beautiful letters, beautiful words....

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Dear Shaun,

THANK YOU for this service! As a high school English teacher, I I am so grateful for these contributions to humanity. My favorite letter is one of the most heartbreaking ones actually: Vilma Grunwald’s concentration camp letter to her husband and son. I have actually used it in my classroom when studying rhetoric…and I oftentimes forward moving and/or humorous letters by literary and/or historical figures to my students and colleagues to stamp their days with a little more culture. Again, thank you for this powerful endeavor! ~Abigail Beckwith

Jackson, MO

Expand full comment

I love Raymond Chandler’s letters. They’re witty, wise, and often drunk.

Expand full comment
author

I agree. If anyone was born to write letters, it was Chandler.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

What a fun thread!

3) Gene Wilder’s notes on Willy Wonka Costume

2) EB White’s “Wind the Clock”

1) Luz Long to Jesse Owens 💔

Expand full comment

I read these three at least once a year.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

There was another one I loved that I can’t find — I thought it was you who posted it. It was from an architect who used to work for Frank Lloyd Wright, but he has his own studio (in Chicago?). He was responding to an aspiring architect, taking about how he organized his day. It was so full of practical advice.

Expand full comment
author
Apr 26, 2023·edited Apr 26, 2023Author

I remember that one! I'll find it. Hang on. [Edited to add the text of the letter...]

Dear Richard Crews:

I am sorry to be delayed these few days in answering your letter of Dec. 21st but I shall hasten and do it before the new year.

Of course, you would be more interested in what an architect does in a day's work in normal times, than now. So if you will excuse the liberty I shall make the discussion, or at least the answer, on what an architect should do in a day's work.

An architect should, unless it is impossible, answer his mail the first thing in the morning. Then his mind is free to plan and design upon the problems of his clients. He goes to work planning from within outward just as truly as from the ground upward. There are very few real architects who get big jobs because it is only the politician who gets big jobs, and the politician never has time to be an architect. So by all means the architect should learn to do small jobs well, because of the very fact that if he is sincere he shall probably never get big ones.

The architect should always remember that Jesus was an architect and that to be entitled to the same name he should love truth and beauty above all else.

An architect is too busy to bother much about luncheon. A sandwich at noon is enough. He draws or builds models most of the day because that is an aid to his imagination. Imagination is the only quality that is creative.

Above all else the artist must not copy. Imitate nothing except principle. That is best understood by reading such as Henry Thoreau's "Walden" and of the lives of great people.

A real architect like a good man in any business does not waste any time whatever doing things of which he might be ashamed. He must above all be a sincere artist.

I congratulate you upon your choice and sincerely wish you much strength and happiness. Make no compromise from that which you know is right.

Sincerely yours,

[Signed, 'Charles Morgan, Chicago Associate of Frank Lloyd Wright.']

December 30, 1931

CLM-M

Expand full comment

Thank you!! That’s it!

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I love everything you post, and thank you so much for all you do. The letter I most remember is by Vilma on Holocaust Remembrance Day. Oh that just gutted me. So sad but beautiful.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023·edited Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

My favorite letter is a letter from my grandparents when my grandmother was dying of cancer. It is beautiful and thoughtful, and illustrative of the way they loved each other and me, and of just how hard and sad and beautiful that time was. There's a particular description of a moment when they found out her cancer was terminal and then in the same moment were surprised by a visit from their priest holding flowers that is especially moving and memorable. I have stacks of letters from them from my childhood - all creative and funny and wonderful - but that one is the one that stands out.

Expand full comment
author

I can understand why. What a precious thing for you to have.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023·edited Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

The first one that comes to my mind is one written by Vincent van Gogh in 1888.

"But what a compensation, what a compensation, when there’s a day with no wind. What intensity of colours, what pure air, what serene vibrancy."

(The entire letter is here: https://vangoghletters.org/vg/letters/let683/letter.html )

Thank you for this amazing project! <3

Expand full comment
author

Thank you. That's such a great quote. Will read the whole letter asap.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

This letter from the Cleveland Browns lawyer is similar to the one from an irate railroad customer that you published recently. But it expresses what many of us feel when confronted with the petty: https://www.gq.com/story/cleveland-browns-letter-to-fan

Expand full comment
May 4, 2023·edited May 4, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

My son disappeared over seven years ago. One day while looking through his things, I found a letter he wrote to me several years ago. It was heartbreaking and comforting all at once.

On Your Birthday, March, 2010

Dear Mom

I always favored using blank cards — thought this one was nice and cheerful, much like you seem to be lately. I read a post you made on Tcom where you wrote a story about David. It definitely pulls you in. Your writing is beautiful. I wish I knew more about publishing. I’d just do it for you. Of course, I have the same problem with my music. It’s definitely hard to go all the way with a project. Even my first song isn’t really finished. Maybe we can inspire and help each other go all the way. Maybe we can even work together on some. We don’t want to end up like those posthumously famous authors. Anyway, I hope you have a great birthday — a well deserved celebration of how well you’ve been doing. I can see your words continue to inspire yourself and others as you travel down this path of transformation. I’ve always believed in you and admired your courage; felt lucky to have your love and wisdom. You may have felt frail and vulnerable in the past, but your love and passion for your children has never faltered, a resolute foundation of our lives. Today be proud, for I know I’m proud of you.

Love, Ben A.

In 2016, Benny and I began collaborating on a song I wrote. He was gone before we finished. During the few weeks he visited until the day he disappeared, we had a calm harbor together. After high school and college, he traveled all over the world and sent me letters and photos from everywhere he visited. But this letter, which came at a time when I truly needed it, will always be among my favorites.

Expand full comment

I love John Steinbeck’s letter to his son about love - so poignant and powerful.

I wanted to share the email below. My father wrote it to his family and friends on receiving a diagnosis of terminal cancer, he died a few months later in October 2014.

My Dad, Peter Ferraz started the Splashy Fen Music Festival in South Africa. He had a boundless enthusiasm and optimism for life and handled his illness with such bravery.

Whew! Bolt from the blue here!

So, here I'm sitting up in a hospital bed, iPad at the ready and will try to make some sense of it all.

First of all a quick response to the messages of support received - you can have no idea, absolutely no idea, how much they have meant to me and especially to Almary,who has a far bigger emotional load to carry than I do. Almary has been able to acknowledge your messages in texts and emails but in many cases she has just not been able to talk directly. Either way we feel overwhelmingly wrapped in the love and support of many many unbelievable friends. You're so good! And don't forget also how much it has meant to our girls!

O.K. That's enough of the sadder stuff. There are actually a lot of positives - you knew I'd say that didn't you, but I actually really really mean it!

Some updated info, then, especially for those of you who might have been battling with communicating. We came down here to Maritzburg with a bundle of four cellphones, only two of which worked...antediluvian models whose pin nos had long since been forgotten, and ditto the iPad.

After experiencing several months of chest and abdominal pains, and many tests and scans that threw up in turn suspected Bornholms disease ( the Devill'grypp), large hiatus hernia ( real enough but only of minor importance now), a CT scan brought out the real culprit- cancer of the pancreas. So on Wednesday last week a lot of that was cut out and I was moved to intensive care. Unfortunately although the remaining pancreas was clear there had been some spreading to two lymph nodes. I don't know much about these things but my understanding is that the lymph is a bit like a rugby fly half. Once the ball gets to him he can distribute it to anywhere in the park. So bottom line scenario is maybe anything from two months to two years ( but I wouldn't even like to rule out 20!) of a relatively ok life.

You're wondering about the positives now, aren't you??!! Well there are lots, so I'll list them briefly:

1. Nobody can deny that I've had a bloody good life so far...above average. So I have no anger or bitterness about this timing, and know I'll cope with it . When I was a kid on occasional visits to Joburg we sometimes paid our tickets or sixpences at zoo lake and paddled out on little boats. Then half an hour or so later they would shout out "come in number 17 your time is up". That's always seemed to me some sort of explanation of how life works.

2. This is probably the best way to shuffle offstage, when you think about it. We all like to think it would be nice to go suddenly - lightning, heart attack etc - but it's also hell of inconvenient. We're never ready for it, and especially the tidying up of finances etc etc can mean hell for the rest of the family. Too much that could have been rounded off better.

( the other alternatives - slow undignified deterioration into rotten old age ; or spectacular chewing up by a great white shark while your loving family sits waving to you from the beach, are also not preferred alternatives)

3.emotionally. Saying goodbye. This is by far the best route. Your friends and family get to remember you the way you were in your prime. There are still a wonderful number of laughs and fun times to be shared, and a lot of time for everyone to get fully to grips with what's going on.

4. The Great Love Story. I have for a long time carried in my head a quote from C.S.Lewis, for maybe using in that great romantic novel I had up my sleeve to write one day. Lewis's wife got cancer and, distraught, he came out with an amazing statement: " the pain is part of the pleasure". For him this huge consuming love was brought into ultra sharp definition and poignancy by the awful pain he experienced. Does this make sense? To me it does

Just in the space of a few days I have learned the extraordinarily great value of the love and friendship of those about one. You're all in such sharp focus, such lovely lovely people. And after years of wanting to write the world's greatest love story I now find myself as a central character in it. And all of you are in it too. Oh my lovely lovely Almary. My lovely lovely family. And all of you lovely lovely friends. I think the pain/pleasure thing works in both directions also.

O.K. There'll be no more sloppiness.

What you can bet on, though, is that there will be lots and lots of good times still to come. And no problems with coping.

Lots of love ,

Pete

X

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

"I must decline for secret reasons." ~ E.B. White

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023·edited Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Mr. Young –

With regards to the poem you sent me last July, I must question: How, in God’s good name, do you expect me to publish this trash?

There is not a single decent line in the entire thing. In fact, it is so filled with senseless monstrosity that I feel quite certain a 16-year-old could have written it. I nearly puked at the end of line 8, and by line 15 I stopped reading entirely.

Mr. Young, I have a second question to ask you – and I want you to think hard about this one: Why did you ever consider becoming a poet? With your unparalleled ability to spew nonsense, you could have easily secured a job as a radio show host, or better yet, a televangelist.

Mr. Young, before I close this letter, which I see now has been an utter waste of my time, I must tell you that in all my years as an editor, I have never seen such a pointless spouting of hideous decadence – and I daresay I never will again.

Take my advice, Mr. Young. Quit the writing profession.

- Edwin Beattie, Editor in Chief, the _______

Expand full comment
author

Where is this from??

Expand full comment

From a certain sixteen-year-old's imagination. ;)

Expand full comment

Unfortunately, this website cut the breaks between the stanzas, so it looks like one continuous thread of words.

Expand full comment

THE POEM:

I.

I AM a Concealed Poet,

And I shall do your story right;

Your bones will sing until they fail

And break upon the floor of night.

You fester in the dark of day,

And by the moon you do not dream;

But now, in verse, you live again

And clear the cancer on your name.

The name that now has lost its grace

Will once again be known to praise

Your song will echo through the halls,

And set so many hearts ablaze.

The mansion, then, will come alive,

Those empty rooms will sing at last;

The symbols that were lost within

Will link our present to your past.

II.

YOU KNEW at once, before you saw,

You knew the spark was going soon –

And when he spoke, he spoke like ash,

Like gravel, in the nightly noon.

And when he told you that he hurt,

He said he would not last the day;

And when the doctors left the room,

You did not even cry or pray.

And so, you waited by the bed.

The ocean air went in and out,

The curtains billowed in the room,

And cast their shadows all about,

You did not speak, or even dream;

You simply stood and waited there.

The world whispered round the bed

And shifted in the ocean’s glare.

You sometimes spoke, he sometimes heard,

And sometimes, he would simply drift;

The minutes passed, and then the hours –

Still, he lay there, never stiff.

And when the noon had turned to day,

You felt the ocean’s silver gleam;

But there were waters by the shore

That melted like a dying dream.

So, as the ocean sang and turned,

And as the waters lapped the land

And as the seabirds swooped about,

And made confessions to the sand,

Two people waited in a room,

Allowed one final, soulless day,

One day of curtains and white sheets,

And talk to waste the time away.

So soon the ocean turned to red

And melted with the ending sun,

The stars became the eyes of night,

And speared the day as it was done.

You knew that it was near the time,

You knew so well, and so did he;

For in each clouded breath there was

A sample of eternity

You lit the lamps inside the room,

You drew the curtains and the drapes;

And as the minutes ticked away,

The walls went mad with flickering shapes.

You felt his touch upon your hand,

And knew he would not see the dawn.

You shared with him one last embrace,

And then, in moments, he was gone.

His death was quick, the doctors said,

As say the doctors everywhere;

By then the lamplight in the room

Had weakened to a bitter glare.

They took their notes and did their jobs;

You watched them in the crippled light;

They closed his eyes, as doctors do,

And bore him off into the night.

You sat there, in the empty room,

Until the dawn erased the sky;

Until the moon had disappeared

And waterbirds were made to fly.

You watched the foam appear and fall,

To vanish in the wicked tide

So, as the ocean sang and turned,

You sat there in the room and cried.

III.

Your teachers never saw your spark;

For schooling is an industry,

And all the students ever learn

Is pain and penitentiary.

You struggled in the system, then,

But never did you break or fall;

You simply waited for your chance;

So does the genius in us all.

So, when the teachers did you wrong,

You braved the whip and boot and cane,

And even when you wept you knew

That only they could feel the pain.

And even as the years went by,

You sat and waited for that chance.

And bore each duty to the end,

And suffered every circumstance.

So, when, at last, your calling came,

You hastened to the Temple door,

To join in the humility

Of those who walk the checkered floor

You placed a rope about your neck,

And tied a bandage round your face,

To show those seated in the room

You had the strength to forfeit grace.

So, stumbling with a crooked shoe,

Deprived of grace and lacking sight,

You knocked three times upon the door

And told them that you wanted light.

But when you stumbled through their hall

And fell before the highest chair,

The company cried out in shock,

To see a woman kneeling there.

And as the angered men cried out,

And as they made their protests heard,

You calmly took the sacred oath,

And harkened to the Master’s word.

So, when the word was said aloud,

It echoed through the painted hall;

The men all turned to face the east;

At once, a silence claimed them all.

IV.

SO, SITTING in the empty room,

As yellow dawn erased the sky,

You wondered how the teachers knew

The ways to make a genius cry.

You wondered this, and wondered more;

By then, the sky had turned to gray;

And so, a veil was needed now,

To shut away the coming day.

Abroad, you wore your veil for him,

To walk the paths that others shun;

For checkered floors are laid for those

Who need no velvet carpet run.

And winding stairs are built for those

Who wait at every twist and turn;

So, on each landing, all must pause

To test your will and make to learn.

You found in every place you looked

Those symbols few would dare to see;

For symbols written into books

Are wrought in stone and Masonry.

And Masonry is made to stand

The long and wasteful test of time,

That some will know in latter years;

For legacies are stone and lime.

So, when the Temple fell to siege,

The story is as Hiram tells;

No bitter Architect can dream

Of Masonry that never fails.

You knew it then, and still, you know

That systems always fall apart,

And all the Architects and Kings

Had known it from the very start.

Yes, all the Architects and Kings

Had built their dreams on shifting sand,

And shifting times and moving days

Had wrought their horror on the land.

So, as each castle fell to ruin,

And each Temple made profane,

You stood and watched from higher ground

And wept for all the world’s pain.

So many years have passed and yet,

Your name in age is best concealed;

So, when you walk among your ruins

In your hand a cane you wield

And on your head, you wear a hat

The color of a midnight lake

So that the passing world will know

The Shaker’s Spear was made to shake.

For every staircase, every door,

And every jeweled pane of glass,

And every muntin, mullion,

And patterned knob of tarnished brass,

And every gable on the roof,

And every burned-out chimney flue,

And every crimson turret head

Has come alive to speak for you.

The labyrinths that Passion builds,

Are lost to those who will not see

And stand as aching testaments

To long-corrupted Masonry.

As words are read from wasted books,

The tables leave upon the mind

Those symbols that were cherished once:

The legacies we leave behind.

Expand full comment

There is letter from the book ''Julio Cortázar y Cris'' written by Uruguayan writer Cristina Peri Rossi, it's about the beauty of a relationship between both writers and how Cristina chooses to keep Julio Alive. Marvelous book. There is a letter there ''IX Carta de Chris a Julio, Barcelona 1983'', I have no record of the book being translated into English, but if anyone here knows or speaks Spanish have a read, it's an incredible way to get to know this two writers and have a look at what was like the life of these exiled literates back in the 70's an 80´s, fighting with their own demons, and the world's....much like us now, much like every other generation (at the end of the letter she says they should get together and do a list of every city's gender...''Tendríamos que hacer una lista con el sexo de las ciudades, nadie estaría de acuerdo, y eso es lo más estimulante. Además están las bisexuales, como Barcelona'')

Expand full comment
author

Oh wow, that sounds good. I've had a quick look and I can't find an English edition of that book. I often imagine the thousands of foreign-language letter collections that I'll never be able to read. It's torturous.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I've always been a big fan of the letters between poets Al Purdy and Charles Bukowski.

Expand full comment
author

Haven't read them but I'll put them on my list. Thank you!

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Clyde S Shield’s Letter to a Grandson “it’s a strange and confusing world” inspired me to write a letter to my nephew when he was born. He’s just turned 9.

Expand full comment
author

Ah, lovely. I'd forgotten about that letter entirely so thanks for the reminder.

Expand full comment
Apr 27, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

The “Our Frank” Lockerbie letter gets me every time, as well.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Henry James’ letter to Grace Norton ,” contains some of the greatest, most compassionate advice ever put to paper…”. I read it whenever I feel low and it always consoles me and lifts my spirits.

Sorrow passes and we remain….

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Hi Shaun - I don't have an immediate letter to suggest (but wracking my brain) ... but wondered how best to invite you to be a guest on my podcast, 2 Pages with MBS (briliant people read the best two pages from a favourite book). If you're interested, would you ping me at m@mbs.works? And if not, no worries ... thank you anyway for the treasure trove you share here.

Expand full comment
author

Hi. I can’t promise anything as I’m pretty snowed under at the moment but please email me at shaun@lettersofnote.com and I’ll do my best.

Expand full comment

having my hat in the ring is a great start. thanks for considering it.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I only last week came upon Letters of Note on Substack and I love it so much I have already gotten the book set. And THEN! To discover the READINGS of letters of note on Letters Live! What a pleasure!

Expand full comment
author

Better late than never! Good to have you here.

Expand full comment

Rilke, letters to a young poet. Somehow it feels like a secret even though I know he has a large, devoted following. I’m sure you’ve shared him before.

“No feeling is final”

“Learn to love the questions themselves…”

So many passages have been a life vest for me when I thought I might drown

Expand full comment
author

He was amazing. Few people wrote letters so quotable.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

A couple I have saved recently: Ethel Rosenberg to her sons; C.S. Lewis to a young girl…probably some others but don’t have access to iMac files. Keep up the good work.

Expand full comment
author

Thank you!

Expand full comment

I found the letters "To My Widow" by Robert Falcon Scott very moving.

Expand full comment
author

So do I. Just his first three words are profoundly moving.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

Abigail Adams' "remember the ladies" is the most prescient letter in US history, IMHO.

Expand full comment
author

Yes! For some reason (unless my memory’s failing me) I’m yet to share that one. Will do so, soon.

Expand full comment
Apr 26, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

I do not have a favourite letter from a real person, though I’ve written a few myself, but I do quite enjoy epistolary novels. If you’re open to suggestions, my favourite to date is called This is How You Lose the Time War by Amal El-Mohtar & Max Gladstone

Expand full comment
author

I’ve never heard of that, will take a look.

Expand full comment
May 2, 2023Liked by Shaun Usher

One of my fav books is "Speaking for Themselves: The Love Letters of Winston& Clementine Churchill," edited by Mary Soames. My copy dates back 25+ years and it is a wonderful testament to love and walk back through history. These days I think you'd have to look around for a copy as its been out of circulation for a while but it's a brilliant read!

Expand full comment